nostalgia.

Why am I even alive? My parents hate me, my brother treats me like shit. He gets all their love and attention. I feel like a ghost. I feel like I’m dead. I usually wake up in the morning and all I can think about is how much I don’t even want to be alive. It consumes me. Every single day it’s how, when, where. No one will miss me. I am being totally serious. No one loves me.

And maybe, I’ll be dead and people will think Oh fuck. I probably should have treated her better, loved her more, not been so fucking horrible to her.

And I won’t even care. Because no matter where I’ll be, it’s better than here.

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graduated high school.
smoked a cigarette.
kissed someone.(apart from family)
gotten so drunk you passed out.
ridden every ride at an amusement park.
collected something really stupid.
gone fishing.
watched four movies in one night.
gone long periods of time with out sleep.
lied to someone.
snorted cocaine.
failed a class.
dealt drugs.
been in a car accident.
been in a tornado.
done hard drugs.
watched someone die.
been to a funeral.
burned yourself
run a marathon.
cried yourself to sleep.
spent over $200 in one day. 
flown on a plane.
written a 10 page letter.
gone skiing.
been sailing.
cut yourself.
had a best friend.
lost someone you loved.
shoplifted something.
been to jail.
dangerously close to being in jail.
had detention.
skipped school.
got in trouble for something you didn’t do.
stolen books from the library. 
gone to a different country. 
dropped out of school.
been in a mental hospital. 
watched the “harry potter” movies.
had an online diary.
fired a gun.
gambled in a casino.
had a yard sale.
had a lemonade stand.
actually made money at the lemonade stand.
been in a school play.
taken a lie detector test.
swam with dolphins.
gone to sea world.
voted for someone on a reality tv show.
written poetry.
read more than 20 books a year
gone to europe.
used a coloring book over age 12.
had surgery.
had stitches.
taken a taxi.
seen the washington monument.
had more than 5 im’s/online conversations going at once.
overdosed.
had a drug or alcohol problem.
been in a fist fight.
suffered any form of abuse.
had a hamster.
pet a wild animal.
used a credit card.
gone surfing in california.
done “spirit day” at school.
dyed your hair.
gotten a tattoo.
had something pierced.
gotten straight a’s
been on the honor roll.
known someone with hiv or aids.
taken pictures with a webcam.
started a fire.
gotten caught having/going to a party while parents were gone